In her autobiography ‘The Woman in Me’, Britney Spears confided that she once wanted to build a forever home with Kevin Federline, but was ‘coldly violent’ by him not long after giving birth.

The Everytime singer spends a lot of time in the book talking about her marriage to the dancer born in 1978. The custody battle between the two left many psychological shocks for Britney Spears.

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Britney met Kevin during a period of her depressed mood. At that time, her relationship with Justin Timberlake ended less than two years ago, and the singer had just gotten out of a quick 55-hour marriage with her childhood friend Jason Alexander.

The first time they met, Kevin held her in the middle of the pool for hours. The following month, they often went swimming together. Under the water, the male dancer hugged her for as long as he wanted and did not let go until she asked. For the sad woman that day, he was a source of comfort. He brings a feeling of stability and strength, despite his bad boy image. The feeling between them is not just a physical need, but a spiritual closeness, “more than sex”.

In the pop star’s memory, their love affair began happily. It wasn’t until they were together for a while that Britney learned that Kevin had a toddler and that his ex-girlfriend was eight months pregnant with their second baby. At first, she didn’t believe it. But when she asked about this, Kevin admitted. He said he visits his children once a month.

Despite this, Britney still chose to stay with Kevin. He accompanied her on her spring 2004 tour. They married that fall.

“I thought Kevin could give me the stability I always craved and the freedom. I really wanted to build a home with him and grow old together. Not many people were happy to see me become a couple. Kevin. Like it or not, I was one of the global superstars at that time. Kevin was more private.

Britney Spears married Kevin Federline after dating for less than a year.

Every day, I carry my child to find my husband

Not long after Sean Preston, the first child of the two artists, was born, Kevin began to develop his music career. Britney said she supports her husband on this path. Occasionally, the female singer visits the studio where he works and sees it as a meeting place for a club. From outside the door, she could smell the faint smell of cigarettes.

Just smelling marijuana smoke makes me want to vomit. Being pregnant for the second time, Britney spends most of her time at home. Meanwhile, Kevin is busy with work. Feeling the couple growing apart, Britney thought to herself that perhaps all couples go through something like that. She thinks she should let him enjoy success at work.

Britney confided: “I try to reassure myself: he is my husband. I need to respect him, accept him on a deeper level than people I just date. He is the father of my children. Your behavior is different now, but if it can be changed, it can also go back to how it was before. People say you will break up with me while I’m raising children, just like what you did to the mother of my first two children when they were still infants. But no way! You wouldn’t treat me the way you treated your previous family.”

The couple was still passionate.

Trying to deny Kevin’s separation from her, Britney Spears flew to New York to find her husband. He hadn’t contacted her for so long that she felt they needed to spend time together as a family. When she arrived, while she was eager to meet her husband, he refused to meet her.

Some time later, Kevin moved to work at a recording studio in Las Vegas, and Britney continued to carry Sean Preston while pregnant while looking for her husband. She left her child at the hotel with the nanny and then went to the studio. And once again, she received notice that Kevin did not want to meet. The bodyguards who used to work with her now stand in front of the studio and do not let her inside.

Britney Spears expressed her sympathy for Kevin Federline, when she witnessed him trying to create achievements while everyone doubted him. Still, she thinks he should come home more. Britney said that she sacrificed a lot for this marriage. After the wedding day, she felt she had everything but also gave up her career to be a wife and mother.

The 42-year-old star recalled: “It seemed like Kevin wanted to pretend I didn’t exist. All I could think was that I wanted to get close to Kevin, close enough to be able to ask him what was going on. I want to ask: ‘When you left home to come here, we hugged each other. You even kissed me?'”

Britney held her eldest son at a cafe during her second pregnancy, confused because she was surrounded by a crowd of paparazzi outside.

The fight to be close to your child

Britney Spears feels that Kevin Federline has changed, “obsessed with fame and power”. One time, he came home late and excitedly said he had attended a party with Justin Timberlake and Lindsay Lohan. Releasing his debut album and starting to gain popularity, Kevin starred in an advertisement for an insurance company during the Super Bowl football tournament. From that moment on, Britney almost never saw him again.

She filed for divorce in November 2006, when her second son Jayden James was almost two months old. Both want to gain full custody of their two sons. Britney filed a lawsuit to gain custody of her children, and Kevin tried to convince everyone that she had lost control. He said she should not be close to the children anymore. For many days, she waited for her ex-husband to return her child, but not only did he not return it, he also did not let her see the child.

In February 2007, Britney came to Kevin to see her child but was not allowed into the house. At that time, Sean Preston was 17 months old, Jayden James was 5 months old. The singer imagined her children not knowing where their mother was, wondering why she didn’t want to be with them. She wanted to break down the door to get in the house with her child. That whole process is watched by paparazzi. Britney felt insulted and cornered.

In early January 2008, the two sons were brought to Britney’s house. When the meeting ended, a bodyguard who used to work for her and now worked for Kevin came to pick up the two children. While this person put Sean in the car first, Britney suddenly thought she might never see her children again. She quickly hugged Jayden and ran into the bathroom and locked the door. She didn’t want anyone to take her child away. The process of fighting for custody left her scared.

A friend came to reassure the singer and said her bodyguard would wait until she was ready. She hugged her child and sobbed. But before she could realize what was happening, the SWAT team (the special weapons and tactics team of the US law enforcement agency) rushed in, broke down the door, separated her child from her, tied her to a mobile hospital bed and Drive straight to the hospital.

Another trial took place, and Britney was told that she would have less time to see her children than before. “What Justin and Kevin destroyed was my trust. I used to trust people a lot, but after my breakup with Justin and my divorce from Kevin, I could never truly trust another person again.” “, Britney confided.

While under her father’s guardianship, Britney said she followed all the terms of the conservatorship to see her child. She also gave up resisting her father’s control after undergoing two involuntary psychiatric evaluations. “My freedom comes at the expense of naps with my kids. That’s a trade-off I’m willing to make,” Britney wrote. “Being a mother is my dream come true.”

Britney once gave up her freedom to see her children.